Monday, January 18, 2010

First Time Mom, Second Time Around

As I approach the 32nd week of this pregnancy (YAY only 7 weeks to go) I start to realize I am anticipating the birth of this baby girl the same way I did when my 6 year old Evan was born. I feel like I am being a first time mom all over again. I am sure its a combination of the fact that I have 2 stinky little boys already and I am finally getting my long awaited baby girl; and the fact that Grace has been diagnosed with Down Syndrome, and this is entering a whole new realm for me.

If you know me, and I mean REALLY know me, you know that I am a very detailed oriented person. I am a very anal person, and I like to have things planned out as much as possible, and I dont handle things too well that don't go as planned. (got that from my momma) Now here I am expecting my 3rd child, who is a girl, who will have special needs, and I am starting to get terrified.

I feel like I can't compare my first two newborns to what I have coming ahead. Eventhough I have read the books, visited the websites, read the experiences of other moms, it doesn't change the fact that everything will be new, and I can't prepare for what I have ahead. I just have to pray that I stay on top of everything the best I can, and I do the very best for my little

Luckily, I have a wonderful husband, family and support system to stand by me and help me face the challenges I have ahead.


  1. You're going to find out that initially, there isn't any difference. I say, "Babies are babies" a lot to a lot of different people. My daughter is almost 10 months and the differences are all the appointments and the heart surgery, which was stressful, but it isn't like a baby with only 46 chromosomes never has surgery.

  2. I betcha that once sweet little Gracie comes all of the anxiety is going to go away. All the things that are causing you to feel like this is the first time around will disappear and having Grace in your life will feel as if she has always been there. You are a natural mother!